Showing posts with label lockdown. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lockdown. Show all posts

Tuesday, 12 January 2021

Tuesday poem - Tears Before Breakfast

Locked down but unable to stay in bed
As children bounce out at 5am
Staying up late, listless, without purpose
Makes early mornings hard to bear
The darkness outside matches the darkness within
As we attempt to pull the covers over our heads

For months now we've turned that frown upside down
We've gone sunny side up
We've smiled and adapted and bent and swayed
All to keep things going and moving and working
Alarms set and routines met and boxes checked
Every step moving forwards yet going nowhere

It could be worse the daily mantra
And it could, it really really could
But a daily mantra that could be worse is no mantra to have
And all those emotions and fears and worries
That you bottled and saved and shoved way down
Become tears before breakfast that you can't stop


Claire Buss is a multi-genre author and poet, completely addicted to cake. Find out more about her books on her website clairebuss.co.uk. Join the discussion in her Facebook group Buss's Book Stop.

Monday, 22 June 2020

Forgetting Things

It was Father's Day yesterday and I forgot to send my fathers a card. I am lucky, I have three - the original, my step-dad and a father-in-law. I forgot every single one.

I knew it was Father's Day. I remembered to get my husband appropriate cards and gifts from our children and I'm pretty sure I offered to make a cup of tea (even if I didn't actually make any, that's his job). 

In my head, everything was sorted and it wasn't until I was cleaning the bathroom yesterday that I realised with shock horror that I hadn't sent anybody a card. In order for cards to arrive, I have to actually buy them - write them - post them. And for some unknown reason, I missed that entire stage.

I think it has a lot to do with my lockdown mentality. I am a stay-at-home mum and a natural indoorsy person although I love nature. I know, I'm a complicate conundrum. Anyway, being at home all the time, for me, isn't that big a change. What was really different was popping to the shops, dropping cards in at the post office after the school run, nipping into town to pick up some socks for the kids etc - all those incidentals that you don't really think about, I couldn't do them anymore.

And so I moved what I could online but a lot of things just fell to the wayside because either I couldn't get food shopping delivery OR I was refusing to pay the ridiculous price wanted for things. I usually get my kids clothes from Primark because they grow like weeds and they ruin things so quickly - why would I pay an arm and a leg for that?

Posting cards is one of the things that fell away. I relied instead on direct delivery packages from Amazon and video messages from my suitably primed children who can, on occasion, be super cute. But this Father's Day? Not a sausage.

It was with cap in hand that I messaged, rang and asked hubby to apologise to the various father figures. It won't happen next year, I promise! 

Unless we're under lockdown again...


Claire Buss is a multi-genre author and poet, completely addicted to cake. Find out more about her books at her website clairebuss.co.uk. Join the discussion in her Facebook group Buss's Book Stop.

Monday, 25 May 2020

Half-Term Lockdown

Week 10. Week 10 of lockdown. Ten weeks of being inside with my small people. Ten weeks of homeschooling. Ten weeks. It certainly feels like a milestone, doesn't it?

In the beginning, we sort of muddled along for a couple of weeks sticking to school start time and length because the schools would be opening again after the Easter holidays, wouldn't they? We had our Easter break, didn't go and visit the grandparents but did manage an Easter egg hunt and it was alright. The kids spent way too much time on screens but it was the holidays.

Then we went back to homeschool and this time there was a lot more direction from the school website. They'd gotten serious. So we stuck to our routine, mixed it up a bit, added some extra breaks and finished a bit earlier because... you know what? Being indoors, all the time, with your kids, all the time, and having to interact with them, all the time, despite any plans you might have to do anything for yourself, they want you all the time! Screen time continues to be a big feature.

I have a day job. Yes, I might be a stay at home mum but I work as well and my work can easily fill an entire day, with no breaks from the moment I get up to the moment I go to bed, late. I am not pushed for things to do. So usually half-term for me would be the resignation of knowing that I'm not going to get anything done for a week because I'll be entertaining the smalls, taking them out, visiting people, going places and having fun.

That feeling of resignation has been my constant companion since lockdown began. Together with parental guilt, varying stages of panic and worry plus a general sense of what the hell???

I have absolutely no idea what we will be doing this half-term apart from not a lot. I need a break from key-stage one maths and English. I don't want to colour-in. I don't think I could watch an animated cartoon/film if you paid me a million dollars and I cannot play another game of snakes and ladders.

But hey, it's not all doom and gloom. We've got another 7 weeks of school and then... the summer holidays!!

See you on the other side. Maybe.


Claire Buss is a multi-genre author and poet, completely addicted to cake. Find all her books on Amazon. Join the discussion in her Facebook group Buss's Book Stop.

Monday, 20 April 2020

Locked Down

We're now in week five of lockdown here in the UK and it's remarkable how adaptive people have become. Yes, you've still got those who refuse to follow government guidelines and ignore social distancing because they're immortal idiots and nothing bad ever happens to them. But, on the whole, people are doing what they've been told. And the curve is being flattened.

Now, the figures we're seeing are the reported deaths in hospital and whilst that is both staggering and frightening, it is also not the whole picture. What of the deaths happening in the community? And believe me, they are happening. Has that curve flattened out? And what's the deal with having a flat curve anyway?

The point of the lockdown was/is to control the number of deaths to a more manageable level whilst the NHS scramble to prepare themselves for a massive overload of patients. Apparently, they are now ready and don't get me wrong, I salute every single NHS staff member for being absolutely incredible but I worry, are they really ready? Coronavirus has not gone. It hasn't decided to visit another country for a while and leave the UK alone. It's still out there. It's still deadly. And it still has a lot more people to kill. And those people will start to die when the lockdown is lifted as it may well be in a couple of weeks time.



Other countries in the EU are cautiously lifting their own restrictions to see what happens and obviously, we will observe and hopefully adapt our own plans accordingly. There is talk of the schools being reopened in May. That feels frighteningly too soon to me. But we are where the government wanted us to be as a result of lockdown - an alleged flattened curve and a prepared NHS. So all that remains is to gradually lift the lockdown and return to your life.

But what will this new normal be like? It cannot go back to business as usual despite the elastic adaptivity of the human race. Should everyone continue to walk around with face masks on as a precaution? And what about social distancing? I've read that keeping yourself apart from others should be the new method of social interaction going forward. Gone is the handshake or the platonic air kiss greeting. Instead, we will stand a respectful distance away and incline our heads or bow. Maybe wearing gloves to interact with others will become standard or the continual use of hand sanitisers an acceptable business meeting routine.


The incredible effectiveness of working from home has got to raise questions on whether the polluting commute and the brain-numbing office-based 9-5 is really the best option for everyone. I truly hope that businesses become more flexible on where people work especially since the entire country has proven they can get the job done. Of course, there are jobs you cannot perform from home and I am by no means suggesting that people should remain locked inside their houses. I just wonder whether a new degree of flexibility will emerge.

I think about my high street, similar to so many of your own, and wonder which shops will still be there. Will that wonderful indie coffee shop still serve its delicious vegan mochas and immense vegan chocolate cake slices? What about the charity shops - with their older generation of volunteers, how will they be affected? Will they continue to take donations? Will the library be flooded with people desperate for new reading material or will it remain empty and barren as people can't bring themselves to leave the house. Did local business get the help they needed on their rent or mortgages? Were all the staff successfully furloughed? I hope everyone has a job to go back to.

There have been many dire warnings of the economic fallout once lockdown lifts so I guess we have to continue to observe and wonder who will rise and who will fall. Now, more than ever is the time to go local and support the little guy.


Claire Buss is a multi-genre author and poet, completely addicted to cake. Find all her books on Amazon. Join the discussion in her Facebook group Buss's Book Stop.