'Yeah' with a nod. 'Yeah' with a sigh. 'Yeah' with a nose wrinkle and a shrug. 'Yeah' with that deep sinking feeling that actually you've got nothing to say.
I have always prided myself on being able to make sparking conversation. Case in point.
But it's true. I have nothing to say because I've done nothing. And I feel so guilty about having done nothing that I feel like I can't do anything anyway. The human brain has the most amazing capacity to stand in its own way. In true immovable force, unstoppable action style.
It's weird because if I wasn't performing at work I would have been pulled into the MD's office and given a solid talking too with the threat of lost income dangling over my noggin. Seeing as I don't actually have any income and I am my own boss, I'm more likely to invite myself in for a cup of tea and a freshly baked cake.
However, not all is lost. There is still a month until competition deadline, which in my head means I don't have to write anything for another three weeks. I did jot down an idea yesterday. And I've started dreaming again - always a good sign of a fresh and fertile mind. The toddler in the night time has morphed into the toddler who wakes fresh as a daisy on the nose at 6am so I can't really complain about that anymore. Plus, it's writer's workshop tomorrow so if nothing else I should feel motivated to write another blog post.
And - just in case you hadn't noticed - I refreshed my blog. And yes that's me. Drinking tea and eating cake!
Nicely said. I've had similar questions and responses about my craft brewing. Hard to get past that inertia. Perhaps hard, yes, but definitely worth it. Nothing compares to that first success, or even that first step, after a long absence for what ever reason.
ReplyDeleteHear, hear - to us and our brews. Yours of hops and mine of words.
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