I've been chatting to various people lately about the perceived cant's in my life and it has been pointed out to me gently and somewhat less tactfully that the only person standing in my way is me.
I state a problem, listen to the answer and then say oh I can't do that because blah, blah, blah. And it's curious to even look back and realise that you are standing in your own way. The human mind is a powerful thing, it really can stop you in your tracks or push you beyond all your goals. I don't understand why I would put road blocks in my way. I don't understand why I would rock the boat and risk the destruction of good things for no apparent reason.
It reminds me of The Matrix (bear with me), when it is explained to Neo that the original computer programme failed because it made life too perfect for the human brain to accept. Are we really evolutionarily hard wired to expect things to go wrong and bad things to happen all the time? Do we really expect to fail at every corner and be beaten before we even start?
It is a peculiar thing and I'm not sure how to overcome it. People say, oh just relax and don't worry and everything will be fine. I actually feel relaxed and unworried so that's clearly not going to work!! The world is so much smaller today, everything is so much closer and the pressure to be the best you can be is immense.
When it is only yourself standing in the way of yourself you can wonder what you can do about it. Do I get up off the sofa? Shall I have another cup of tea? Does this blog need to be a bit longer? Ah yes, you've caught me - all these pontifications are not designed to get out of my way. Epic fail once more. *sigh*